Remember and Celebrate

Category: Grief/Sibling/Adult sibling loss

February 14, 2012

Release of a Different Kind

Something is different this year!  A letter to my brother… Dear Little Brother, It’s November 8th again, 6 years since you left us. And as on every anniversary, I release a red balloon for you, for our shared birthstone, a deep garnet. I take my red balloon to the clerk who inflates it for me,...

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January 27, 2012

A gift for me on my brother’s birthday

It’s January 6, my brother’s birthday. He would have been 55 years old today.  Of course, I have been thinking about him and being grateful that he was part of my life. I wasn’t planning to go go to the lake this afternoon. I’m just trying to pick up a few things at the store. But...

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November 6, 2011

Before and After – Be Still and Know

Today is the 7th anniversary of hearing of my brother, Gordon’s is lost at the end of a day of hunting.  He would be found two days later, having succumbed to hypothermia. It’s a day I pause to honor and remember my brother. This morning, Pandora Internet Radio randomly (?) played “Be still and know...

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October 16, 2011

Blessed Be Your Name? . !

As Worship Choir Members, we are encouraged to spend time with one of the songs until it becomes a part of us, as a way of preparing our hearts to lead worship. Last night at choir practice we practiced, “Blessed Be Your Name” by Matt Redman. I find a strange disinterest in this song tonight...

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October 13, 2011

It’s the “October-almost-November” feeling

I wrote the “October-almost-November” Feeling a few years after Gordon died and first posted it last year.  It references the “anniversay reaction/grief” as it is commonly known. This year it’s a bit more noticeable for a couple reasons I suppose. 1)  It’s the anniversary where I can say,” 6 years ago  to the very day…”  This anniversary seems more poignant for that...

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September 17, 2011

A Friend’s Email, Beaches, Waves and God’s Love

There I was in Michigan at a Church Conference with a sick husband by the time we arrived.  After a night of chills and fever and a Dr. who prescribed much needed antibiotics. Still too sick to travel home or attend the conference we had no choice but to stay put – wondering why we were there. I...

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September 13, 2011

Grief and Gladness (Gratitude), A “Curious Blend”

In silence, Lord, I feel now the curious blend of grief and gladness in me over the endings that the ticking and the twirling of things brings. (Ted Loder, “I Teeter on the Brink of Endings” – Guerrillas of Grace, Page 83.) These lines from Ted Loder’s poem capture my pensive mood today. It’s Ronnie’s...

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September 5, 2011

Singing her song!

Today, August 28, 2011, I remember Brenda Jane in my own quiet way, and  release a green balloon into the air on the bluff above Lake Michigan at Ft. Sheridan beach. She would be 51 years old today.     Being a tiny premie, she lived only 7 hours. I never knew her. I have no...

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August 24, 2011

“No one Understands” guest post

Today I read a post by Caleb Wilde  a 6th generation funeral director and friend of my son, Todd.  I was struck by the truth of his post and I especially like his ending.  Thank you Caleb Probably one of the more insensitive things you can say to the bereaved at a funeral is, “I...

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August 5, 2011

“Bye! C’Ya!”

Bye Cya August,  2008 it hit me . . . three years ago, this day was the last time I saw my brother. I had asked him to come to Illinois.  Mom had been sick that summer; we almost lost her. She was out of the hospital, but still not well enough for me to...

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