curiosity, adventure and the future

No hesitation No fear Just curiosity about what’s next, While I am always wondering what disaster awaits. Help me to see You as the One who reveals the future as I need to know. Sometimes like today, The knowing in my head has a hard time getting to my heart. I need your help Lord….

When I Can’t See…

written Sept. 2008 during a time when I  struggled with fear. This post is part of the process of learning to trust again after the loss of my brother and grieving the earlier losses of two siblings as a child.  Even now, three years later, I still struggle at times with fear. What is also true…

Telephone Poles, Wires and Lent

I notice the beauty the evergreens from my window freshly decorated with the overnight snow storm. And once again I am irritated by the clutter of telephone pole and wires. What if I could just clear it all away? How it would change the view! Lord, sometimes “telephone poles and lines” get in the way of…

Bumps, Comfort and “Papa Neckie’s” Lap

Dear Princess Rosebud, It’s always fun to baby sit for you. Papa Neckie came along tonight. You were having such a good time. And somehow you fell and got a big “goose egg” on your sweet little forehead. And you were Very Sad! You let Mimi hold ice on it for awhile Then needing comfort, you…

Release of a Different Kind

Something is different this year! A letter to my brother, Gordon on his birthday… Dear Little Brother, It’s November 8th again, six years since you left us. And as on every anniversary, I release a red balloon for you, for our shared birthstone, a deep garnet. I take my red balloon to the clerk who…

A Couple Minutes of Rest

Snow, blue sky, clouds, bare trees. . . I see them from my corner table at the Garden Cafe. The earth is resting. Maybe the earth knows best. Time to be . . . Just a few minutes to accomplish nothing Why does it feel so wasteful? The breaths come further apart Muscles unwind And…

Clouds and a thin sliver of Pastel Blue Skies

This morning I am stopped by the quiet beauty of gray clouds and a thin sliver of pastel blue sky lining the horizon across the frozen snow-covered lake. What is it that makes me stop at the sight? get a lump in my throat? What is so unusual about a cloudy morning after a snowstorm…

Singing and Wings

written during a season of loss in 2006 – 7 months after Gordon died and 3 months after Galen lost his job at the church. My greatest fear – that I would lose the worship choir community which I found to be so life giving for me. I didn’t know how I would survive. Those…

Thoughts for New Year’s Eve: Emptiness, Control Towers and Peace

LORD, Driving past the Lake today I notice a traffic control tower. I’ve never seen it before, but I see it now because the trees’s are “empty,” stripped of their leaves. Sort of like my life. . . When the “leaves” of my life are stripped away when I am “empty” I see you more…