Remember and Celebrate

April 27, 2014

Psalm 34:8, Hard Hats, Safety Glasses and Work Boots

Psalm 32:8  I will guide and teach you the way you should go.  I will give you good advice and watch over you.  
(written FebrUary 2009)

It's been 3 1/2 years since my brother GORDON got lost in the mountains and died of hypothermia before he was found. And I have been going through a period of doubt concerning God’s goodness for several months now. We have also just signed my mother up for hospice and every day is full of question marks.
Oh, it’s not that I doubt God is overall in-light-of-eternity good. But I do wonder if He cares about how I experience life on a day-to-day basis. I am still in the scary middle of this process when I go for a walk in the neighborhood, asking God if there is something he would like me to notice, something he would like to say to me.

As I walk past the church up the street, I stop, my attention drawn to the construction sign. 

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And I begin to talk to God: 

LORD, 
You seem to be doing a lot of construction in my life. 
Sometimes it feels like destruction. 
so you can rebuild what has been broken.
I am so tired.
I just want to be “done.” 
Done with grief, with loss and 
all that goes with it. 
But looking at this sign, 
I am beginning to "hear" 
what you want to say to me. 

construction site  - Page 040

LORD: 
Give me YOUR “hard hat” to protect my thinking processes through this time. Help me believe you are GOOD. 

Give me YOUR “safety glasses” to protect my eyes as you help me see what you want me to see.

Give me YOUR "workboots." Protect my footsteps as I journey with you through this season of doubt. Take me to a place of peace and healing.

My Child: I will guide and teach you the way you should go. I will give you good advice and watch over you. Psalm 32:8 

As I continue to be honest in my struggle with trust, God meets me where I am. And I come to believe he is not only good, he delights in me. 

And I can't help but think how applicable this is to me right now is the season in which I find myself.  God's word is always relevant

Zephaniah 3:17 becomes on of my favorite verses of scripture: 

Your God is present among you,a strong Warrior there to save you.  Happy to have you back, he’ll calm you with his love and delight you with his songs.

Linking this weekend with:
Diedra Riggs and The Sunday Community
Scripture and a Snapshot
Lyli Dunbar and Thought Provoking Thursday

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April 24, 2014

The Year Easter Found me (When I Thought I Had Lost It)

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April 19, 2014

Redemption & Resurrection

I Peter 1:18-19  It was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the preciuos blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 

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All week long I have had this scripture in my concious thought.  Creating this art piece* helps center my thoughts on this precious scripture as I also anticipate the celebration of the Risen Lord.  

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He is risen

He is risen, indeed!

Meditating on Redemption and celebrating the Resurrection of my Saviour this week

 Sharing with
Weekend Brew, Barbie Swihart
The Sunday  Community, Deidra Riggs
Scripture and a Snapshot, Jennifer

*ZIA (Zentangle Inspired Art) created by Carol. Zentangle: is a fun relaxing way to create images by intentionally drawing repetitive patterns.
Creating images using this method helps me meditate and remember words/thoughts such as scripture

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April 16, 2014

Taste/See

Psalm 34:8
Taste and see that the LORD is good; 
blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.
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Sitting by the lake with my granola bar and my
½ decaf/ ½  hot water/extra milk/two Splenda coffee
God reminds of something I already know.
He’s like that when we pay attention.  
He likes to speak to us in our ordinary life
doing ordinary things.  

I’ve been trying to slow down when I eat. 
And ever so slowly I savor the granola bar
the sweet chocolaty taste
lingering on my tongue.

And it’s so much more enjoyable this way
than the usual 
     bite
            chew
                  swallow, 
food sliding right over the tastebuds
reducing eating to mere mechanics.    

And I get it.  

It’s the same with you, isn’t it LORD?  
It’s taking time to savor your words,
allowing them to linger in my thoughts,
giving time for them to find their way
into the recesses of my heart.

This . . . THIS  is 
tasting and seeing that you are good.
that I am safe making you my refuge.    

Oh Lord, help me slow down as I come to you and 
the food  you have for my soul.   

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******************************************************** One of the things I like to do is create a visual of scripture and as I create it, it helps my ADHD brain to meditate/focus on the truth of scripture.  Below ** you’ll find my visual for Psalm 34:8

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**ZIA (Zentangle Inspired Art) created by Carol.  Zentangle is a fun relaxing way to create images by drawing repetitive patterns. Creating images using this method helps me remember works/thoughts/scripture

joining today with
Imperfect Prose/Emily Weirenga
Just Write/The Extraordinary Ordinary
Words of Life Wednesdays, Rebekah Hughes
Thought Provoking Thursdays, Lyli Dunbar

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April 13, 2014

Praise

Rocks along the Racine Waterfront.  My artist friend said I must take a photo of them...it would be good to illustrate "something," she said.

Rocks along the Racine Waterfront. My artist friend said I must take a photo of them…it would be good to illustrate “something,” she said.

It’s been a hard week with my dad.
Dementia is a wicked thing.
The grace in the day was spending time in at my quiet lake, meditating on

Psalm 27:4-6- seeking his face, gazing on his beauty, finding myself safe in his shelter and the ability to sing and make music to the Lord.

because if I don’t praise him, the rocks will praise him

linking this week at Scripture and a Snapshot and Sunday Community

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April 5, 2014

Ps 42:8 A Prayer to the God of my life

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Psalm 42 has long been a favorite of mine.  Over the years, this is where I go when “my soul is cast down".  A couple weeks ago I paraphrased Psalm 42:1 in my own words. (CLICK HERE.)  As I continued spending time in this short Psalm, I was taken with verse 8. And well, I just like the whole 11 verses.  

Psalm 42:8
Always present,
Never changing
God of my life
Therefore I will hope in him
I will yet praise him (vs. 11) 

Psalm 42:8  The Lord will Command his lovingkindness in the daytime.  And in the night His song shall be with me.  A prayer to the God of my life. 

Linking with
The Sunday Community, Diedra Riggs, Scripture and a Snapshot, Jennifer &  The The Weekend Brew,  Barbie Swihart

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March 29, 2014

Rejoice

the mornings and evenings

We just returned from two weeks in Florida, watching the early morning sunrises off the Atlantic Coast.
March of 2008, we also spent time on the Gulf coast of Florida and experienced the evening sunset each day.

Oh God,
Nothing says “rejoice” like a
glorious sunrise and peaceful sunset.
And it all “happens”
by Your power
for our enjoyment.
And it’s all grace.

Linking this weekend with
Diedra Riggs and The Sunday Community, Scrpture & A Snapshot

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March 26, 2014

Psalm 42:1 in my own words

Psalm 42:1 As the deer longs for the water, so my soul longs for you, O God.

As I meditate on this scripture, I begin to think of the things I long for, the things that make my heart ache if I go too long without them.  I start to make a list. 

As a grandma longs for the embrace of a grandchild…
A running hug 

As the city dweller longs for a place so she can see the earth meet the sky...IMG_4349

As a weary-caregiver longs for the Florida beaches the last two weeks of March...
wave

As one longs for the faces of friends who move away...
karen and brian

As a bride, two days before her wedding, longs for the face of her groom whom she has not seen for four months...IMG_8307

As a mother longs for and rejoices to be in the presence of her grown sons . . .
Family Photo Shoot

And their families...
christmas mountain, ff week

It is my heart's desire to
long after you, O God.
And so I pray,
“Draw me close to you.”

“Written March 5, 2014. The words linger long after they are written.

as the deeradding a page to Life Lessons
 Linking withCoffee for your Heart Holly Gerth,  Jennifer Dukes Lee "Tell His Story",  Thought-provoking thursdays with Lyli Dunbar, The Weekend Brew with Barbie Swihart page to  "Life Lessons"

 

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March 23, 2014

where the wind blows

Psalm 143:8
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.  

Yesterday the gentle breeze blew
the ripples on top of the water
to the northeast.

Today the wind blows them
to the southeast.

Lord, let my life to be like the waves
responsive to the wind of your Holy Spirit
“blowing” in the direction you have for me.

For  “You know the way I should take.”
Psalm 143:8

 

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Linking with The Sunday CommunityDeidra Riggs

 

 

 

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March 19, 2014

If I can’t see them, did they exist?

I notice the deep footprints in wet sand
And how fast they disappear

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A few waves . . .  

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And all evidence is
                      gone.

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And I wonder . . . 
Did they really exist
if I can’t see them now?

But I  know they were there
I have pictures
taken on a beach on March 19, 2014, 9:22 am

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So easily, I feel God’s presence
in the good times.
Deep.  Real.  
Hard times come
And sometimes it feels like all 
evidence is
                      gone.

And I wonder,
was he really with me
if I can’t feel Him now?

Ah yes,
I have a journal
filled with “pictures”
of God’s grace
of his presence.

Dear God,
Help me remember
            when you seem to
                       disappear.

Last year life’s circumstances left me reeling, uncertain and feeling unsafe.  God didn’t seeem close and the doubts closed in.  The circumstances seemed more real than what was really real. (If you haven’t been here lately, catch up with my life by clicking “MY STORY”)

But over the years one of the most important things I have learned is this:  He is OK with the honest struggle and doubts of his children.    

And I knew he was there with me, even when he seemed far away.  I missed that sense of presence, but I knew I needed to pay attention, ask for help - because sometimes God shows up in how he uses people – a friend, a counselor, my community. 

He does shows up.
And He has
It’s all grace. 

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Grace and Peace – Carol
linking with this lweek with  Weekend Brew & Emily Weiringa,  Imperfect Prose

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