from my journal, an entry from October 2006, as I was in the midst of deeply grieving the loss of Gordon:
And there’s a question asked in my small group. This community was life to me: I learned through all of the changes that followed Nov. 2005 that Community is life-sustaining and necessary for deep change and healing.
What hinders me from going deeper with God?
Here is my journaled answer:
I lose my peace and I am hindered from going deeper with God when I:
Focus on the future,
Forgetting God’s overriding interest
in my future
Fearing I’ll only exchange one hurt
for another
Focus on the present:
forgetting God’s presence
in my present
Believing my present is
my future
Focus on past hurts and pain
forgetting God extends grace to me
so I can extend it to others.
and forgetting he heals the broken-hearted
Love flows unhindered between us when I
Remember
God’s presence in my present
God’s sovereignty in my future
God’s grace for my past
These reminders are gifts to me.
how easy to forget . . .
how easy to lose hope . . .
how blessed when I remember