from my journal, an entry from October 2006, as I wasÂ in the midst of deeplyÂ grieving the loss of Gordon:
And there’s a question asked in my small group. Â ThisÂ community was life to me:Â I learned through all of the changes that followed Nov. 2005 that Community is life sustaining and necessary for deep change and healing to take place.
â€œWhat hinders me from â€œgoing deeperâ€ with God?Â -Â Â
Here is my journaled answer:
I lose my peace and I am hindered from going deeper with God when I:
Focus on the future,
Forgetting God’s overriding interest
in my future
Fearing I’ll only exchange one hurt
Focus on the present:
forgetting God’s presence
in my present
Believing my present is
Focus on past hurts and pain
forgetting God’s extends grace to me
so I can extend it others.
and forgetting HEÂ heals the broken hearted
Love flows unhindered between us when I
God’s presence in my present
God’s sovereignty in my future
God’s grace for my past
These reminders are gifts to me.
how easy to forget . . .
how easy to lose hope . . .
how blessed when I remember