Rest for the Mind and comfort

Mother is on hospice. We all know she does not have long to be with us. One of the things she want’s most is to be able to go back to Morton and see their friends again. They had a sudden move here in May due to their rapidly declining health and they were not able to have a proper goodbye.

The day after the reception on August 16th, she is disappointed she didn’t wake up in heaven. She gets did get both wishes, the second one on Sept 25, 2009.

I’m looking back now, 3 years later:

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August 2009: I am exhausted, in need of comfort, having spent the past three months intensely caring for mom and dad.  At last, a chance to get away for a few quiet days at our favorite place.

I’ll catch up, process, plan, get organized.  As I share with Galen how exhausted I am, he suggests what I need is rest.  He encourages me to put aside my plans for tomorrow.  He observes  that the energy expended over these stress-filled months have taken their toll. I need to rest, not process and plan.

After a good night sleep, the first in a long time, I spend some time in Ruth Barton’s Book Sacred Rhythms, Â spending most of my time on the chapter entitled Rest for the Mind. 

I rest

      solve

      no problems

            process

            nothing

And go for a walk. 

 

Standing in the quiet

of the country lane I pray

"Oh, God, I need your comfort

Sometimes you seem so present

other times so far way . . .

      like now."

Today . . . right now

I need to feel you close

I need to hear from you

I continue walking

Is there something you have here

for me?

Through the trees ahead I hear

      footsteps scurrying

      to and from house to car.

      car doors opening and

      slamming shut

      Muffled voices

And then a clear, comforting voice ringing out

Here I am.

And I know I have "heard" from You.

I remember  your comfort during the seven  weeks that followed until mom died and continued caring for Dad. 

I am grateful. My prayer today this Sept. 11, is for those in need of comfort.