Remember and Celebrate

November 6, 2014

The Gift of Fall in a Season of Loss

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“First you pursue us with blood maples and tease with your decadent, hazy light. Then you weave through the woods like the scent of decay that surrounds us with every step. Light bathes from above, so plentiful that not even the blood maples or the honey oaks can soak it all up before it overflows the canopy, spilling priceless gold onto the crunchy floor.”  Kelli Woodford, Chronicles of Grace, Oct. 20, 2014 – read it here– A Fall Song

These words of Kelli Woodward, a blogger I read regularly,  paint a picture of my favorite season, helping me connect two things I know to be true about me in the fall.  Until now I just viewed them as two unrelated facts.

1.  I am and have always been enchanted by the beauty of fall. Sometimes it takes my breath away, leaving me speechless with it’s beauty.
2.  For me, fall is a season of remembering, sometimes with tears of sorrow,  sometimes with tears of joy

As  you can see in the pictures below,  many of my family  anniversaries and/or birthdays come in the fall.

family fall

I made the following comment on her blog that  day  and  I began to see the connection between the two things I know to be true about me int he fall.

I wrote:

“The burst of beauty makes fall a bitter sweet time for me.  I have always loved it and it is also a season of remembering those I have lost as most of the anniversaries/birthdays are in the fall season, starting August through Christmas Day (my mom’s birthday).  Gratefully I still love it.  I am beginning to see a gift in all of this.  A season of remembering which sometimes brings times of sadness is also a time of great beauty. I hadn’t thought of it before that way before.  I like this thought.  I will ponder this gift.”

And so I pondered over and over these last two weeks.  And over coffee the other day, my friend Denise and I talked about how Fall coinciding with a “season of so much loss” is God’s grace and sweet gift  to me in this season of contrasts.      Sorrow and joy mingle, and I am not left with only sorrow in the Fall.

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Today, nine years ago today, at 9:30 pm, I received the news that my brother, Gordon, failed to meet his hunting partner as they had planned and he was missing.  Thirty four hours later I would learn he was found, but had succumbed to hypothermia.

And I remember amid the waning  beauty of this season.

 

christmas mountain

Linking with Kelli Woodford and Chronicles of Grace

Linking with Lisha Epperson and GiveMeGraceCommunity

13 Comments

13 responses to “The Gift of Fall in a Season of Loss”

  1. What a glorious tribute to a season blushing with complexity. I will think of you as I savor the last of it. Bless you, Carol.

    • carol says:

      It was your inspired writing that in spired this, Kelli. thank you for YOUR writing. I will always think of you and the mixing of the joy and the sorrow!

  2. Oh. I feel the bittersweet beauty in your words as you capture what this season is to you. So many layers for you. And yes, in this is gift and grace from God himself, who in some majestic ways comes in and paints these colors on the canvas of a season of grief for you. I’m so glad this is something that caught your attention. xoxo

  3. Dear Friend … Sorry, loss, memories, hope. All in a bittersweet entwining.

    May you feel His love holding you together, breathing a healing touch in your soul.

    Hugs.

  4. Rebecca says:

    Cherish the thoughts, ponder the gift, Carol. Praying for your heart during this season.

    Here, the fading beauty is met by a wet chill. I really DON’T like this part as we move into the rawness of winter…I’ll try to think of a reason to be positive.

    • carol says:

      Yes, I was out walking today, and the beauty was a bit different in the gray mist. I was thinking of you today and praying for you as you recover from your surgery.

  5. Nathan says:

    Beautiful, beautiful post, Carol. I too discovered this year the intentional juxtaposition of pain, with God’s beauty through creation, as a way of God letting me know he was and is with me. Joy and pain do go together. I am thinking of you tonight as you continue to reflect.

    • carol says:

      i love the word juxtaposition. some words just sound like they are and this is a perfect one for the mixture and as my friend, Donna says below, the blending of two things that seem so opposite,. Thanks for being here.

  6. Donna says:

    What a holy gift. To see God stirring together the beauty and the loss. Today I drove through the woods and the leaves were falling all around me. I stopped and rolled down the car windows so I could smell the rain coming on. Much more of the gray sky was visible because of the absent leaf cover, way up in the forest canopy. The “loss” of the beautiful leaves granted me a larger view, even on a gloomy day.

    • carol says:

      oh, the “Blending” of joy and sorrow. I like that. Nathan above uses the word “juxtaposition.” Good words. thanks for sharing your picture today in response to the blog post. love you friend.

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