(Start “Before and After” series HERE) I remember a few vignette’s from the day, but very little of how I felt. Mostly I was numb.T he possibilities were too terrible to contemplate. I wake up – How did I sleep – denial? I am to facilitate a small conference call at 9:00 am, but I…
Before and After, Day 1
It’s the 7th anniversary of an event that became a “before and after” event in my life. Seven years ago my brother, Gordon, was hunting in the mountains, got lost, and was not found before he died of hypothermia. As this website is a place for me to record my journey for me and for…
Before and After – Be Still and Know
Today is the seventh anniversary of hearing of my brother, Gordon’s is lost at the end of a day of hunting. He would be found two days later, having succumbed to hypothermia. It’s a day I pause to honor and remember my brother. This morning, Pandora Internet Radio randomly (?) played “Be still and know…
Borrowed Views
It is a beautiful day for a “prayerful walk” in Botanic Gardens. I am headed over to the Serpentine Bridge, when I pass the sign to the “Council Ring.” Â It’s one of those places that isn’t on the way to anything else. – a “destination” kind of place – a quiet reflective place to sit,…
Inflow/Outflow by Melissa Hurst
The background of this Guest Post by Melissa Garber Hurst, PA: I suspect that some of you following this blog are thinking that all this time for listening for God is for those of us in the ” second half of life”  because we have time. I would have been thinking the same thing! So today I focus…
Blessed Be Your Name
As Worship Choir Members, we are encouraged to spend time with one of the songs until it becomes a part of us, as a way of preparing our hearts to lead worship. Last night at choir practice we practiced, “Blessed Be Your Name” by Matt Redman. I find an unexpected disinterest in this song tonight…
Revisiting the “October-almost-November Feeling”
I wrote about the October-almost-November Feeling here in this blog space. It was a few years after Gordon died and first posted it last year. It references the “anniversary reaction/grief” as it is commonly known. This year it’s a bit more noticeable for a couple of reasons I suppose. 1) It’s the anniversary when this…
Blessing Journey part 2b – A Tribute to My Village
More villagers come to mind, as I reflect on that time in our lives. It has been good for me to “Remember” and have this way of “Celebrating” my village. * Lorri who created a beautiful display out of all the things I gathered as a tribute to mom. * friends in Morton who cared…
Blessing Journey Part 2a – A tribute to My “Village”
I will never forget: My husband, Galen who loves my parents as his own and is my rock when I am falling apart. No one could have it better than I do when it comes to a spouse who honors his in-laws. * Cousin Janet who kept me from flying apart by phone from Virginia when…
The “Blessing Journey” – Lessons Learned Part 1
Ten things I Learned on the Blessing Journey (in no particular order) part 1 It’s been two years since mom died. Earlier in the spring of 2009, when I was feeling alone and inundated with the details and uncertainly of caring for my parents, I read an article in a Magazinethat gave me hope. One…